We tell ourselves so many lies and I caught a glimpse of that when I read through the inner critic survey forms that some of you filled out. My heart broke as I read through the responses, but I think the part was just knowing what you’re dealing with or what you go through on a daily basis. Another reason it broke my heart was because I could see myself in so many of your responses. I’ve told myself those same lies that you have. I’m still working my way through all your responses and I’m going to go into more detail about the inner critic survey in a later blog. I want to get all my thoughts together before I post that blog, but I wanted to write today to let you know you are not alone and God made you perfect just the way you are
I’ve been reading a book lately and it’s called Preach To Yourself by Hayley Morgan. One thing that has stood out the most to me is in chapter 11, I just read how she told herself lies for years. She would say to herself that she couldn’t do something. But that’s when she flipped the script and she read through scripture and in her prayer time she came to this conclusion, instead of saying “I can’t get through this situation”. She decided to finish those sentences with “without you”. So how would it look in our own daily lives? “I can’t get out of bed this morning….. without you. I can’t go through this grief process…… without you. I can’t deal with the kids throwing up in the middle of the night…… without you.” It changes your whole perspective and it’s completely right. There are so many things we try to do on our own but God says “let me help you. Let me be there for you. Lean on me. Let me be the rock that your foundation is built upon.”
What a relief that is to know that God wants to be there for us and that he will help us get through any situation. I need this reminder because even though I grew up in the church my entire life and deep down I know this to be true I forget it sometimes. I try to do things on my own. I try to control every situation. I try to be perfect in every possible way, but this reminds me that I am not perfect on my own but through God, he makes me perfect, he makes me clean, he makes me new. I can’t do it on my own. In my own strength, there are a great number of things that are impossible but with God all things are possible.
I think that’s where I would get confused, because I thought that once I gave my life to Christ I needed to be perfect in every single way, in every part of my life. Speaking “I can never be perfect without you”, reminds me that I am not perfect on my own, but through Him, I am made perfect. I am human and I’m going to fail but that doesn’t mean that I stay there. I know that God forgives me and calls out to me “come, child, tell me what’s wrong”. Do you know how freeing that is, when you know that you can go to God with anything?
Over this past year+, it has blown my mind that by truly giving God control of my life and breaking down those walls of perfection. I have the freedom of being open on this blog, letting you into the innermost parts of me that I haven’t shared with very many people, but I share it because I know that I am not the only one going through these situations. So, I hope that through this blog and through my writing it comes across clearly that you understand you are not alone no matter the situation. Yes, your situation may be different than mine or it might look a lot like mine but you are not alone. Don’t feed the lies that pop up in your mind, speak the truth.
I pray that this blog today was an encouragement to you and can help in your daily life. Always know I am available to pray with you or just be someone to talk to when life gets hard. E-mail me at megan@churchanywhere.us if you need prayer!
Talk to you soon!